Hello!
And goodbye to 2017. This is my last post this year! That's so sad, and also IN TWO DAYS IT'S GOING TO BE A NEW YEAR. THAT'S ABSOLUTELY INSANE!
This year has been really great for me. I know, I've had a few breakdowns throughout the year, but let's not dwell on those too much. They're in the past. Let's focus on what's been good, because there's been a lot of good!
Let's start off with the big things I achieved this year;
I graduated university! At long last! Like I said in my post about this, university had been a dream for literally years of my life, and last year was my 3rd, and final, attempt at applying for uni through UCAS. I did graduate a year earlier than I should be, because university wasn't the experience I'd hoped it would have been, but I'm still really proud of myself for achieving this! While I lived at uni, I also made a friend who I hope will be in my life for years to come; Joanne.
In February this year, I learned how to snowboard. This wasn't a life long goal of mine, but I thought it was something that looked really cool (pun intended), and it would allow me to relate better to the customers that I serve. I had my final lesson on my 23rd birthday and I've been on the slope once since then, for the girls' afternoon. It's a sport I'm really glad that I took up, and it got me back into wanting to do more sports! It's also something that's helped a lot with a fear of mine; falling from a height. The thought of falling head first down the slope absolutely terrified me, but I've learned that I know how to make sure that doesn't happen (because I can turn) and once I realised that it wasn't as scary as it seemed, my fear began to lessen. In fact, it lessened so much that when I went to visit hannah this year, I decided to do the pier jump/zip line!
On the topic of starting to do more sports, a pretty major thing I did this year was go surfing! Surfing had been a lifelong goal of mine since I was a little 10 year old, listening to the Mcfly "Room on the 3rd floor" album on repeat while dancing around my bedroom. And when I went to Lanzarote this year, I finally did it, and it was so much better than I could ever have anticipated. I have no words to express fully how happy it made me but yeah. I SURFED.
I tackled my anxiety this year. I did a lot of things that scared me, like when I walked around London by myself, and I'm a much stronger and more positive person because of it. In fact, this year I plucked up the courage to give two guys that I thought were kinda cute (a wedding singer and a waiter, I'm actually so cliche) my number. So 90s. So, they didn't go anywhere, which honestly is totally okay and I'm not upset over, but it's an achievement I never thought I'd have the courage to do. Plus the fact they actually messaged me back in the first place was a major confidence boost. Maybe I'm not a potato. Maybe I'm a french fry. This little ego boost as well as the tackling of my anxiety helped me to accept myself. I know I'm not the best person alive, and I know that I've made a lot of mistakes in my life, but things happen. And I accept that I won't be right 100% of the time.
I learned how to make pizza from scratch. That was pretty great. I make gooood pizza. Not to brag or anything. Also, a few months ago, I became a vegetarian. This wasn't some decision I made overnight (okay in some ways it was), but it was something that had been building up for over a decade. My first attempt at turning veggie, when I was maybe around 12, was a fail because I gave up once I realised I wouldn't be able to eat McDonalds hamburgers any more. But I'm happy to announce that I'm still meat free since I made that post, and I hope to continue it for the foreseeable future.
The final things are two pretty important things to me. I gave love and I felt love. I showed so much love to my friends this year in the form of care packages, and sending off so many cards and messages to remind them that I care about them. This year has been the year where I truely lived by 'Be Excellent To Each Other'. Not only that, but I got a lot of love back. Sure, I have some people who haven't been in as much contact with me as they used to be, and as much as that hurts, I'm trying not to let it upset me. A lot of my friends have really tried to lift me up when I've been down, and they've really helped me to keep going, and I'll never have the words to fully express to them how happy that makes me feel!
Lastly, I told somebody that I deeply care about that I deeply care about them. I'm not going to give a lot of context to this one, because things haven't gone the way I expected them to, and I'm still left feeling very confused by a lot of things, but it was a really big thing for me. I'm just hoping that things will turn out well in the end, and until that happens, I'm just going to keep finding distractions to get me through it.
So. That's been my year. Of course a lot more has happened this year, but if I talked about it all then we'd be here until hogmanay 2018 so it's better that I mentioned only the highlights. Hopefully next year is just as good to me, and to you.
How has your year been? Leave a comment with at least one good thing that's happened to you this year!
I'll see you in the new year. Until then, be excellent to each other.
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