All I Want For Christmas Is...?

Hello!

Today is December 2nd. First of all, wtf?! Second of all, this is when everybody starts asking me what I want for my Christmas, and where I disappointingly have absolutely no idea whatsoever. #Spoiler?

I haven't known what I want for Christmas for a really long time. Money? Happiness? My dream job tied up all pretty in a wicker basket with a blue ribbon? I really don't know. But maybe that's a good thing.

The idea of Christmas has sort of died down for me, but the social considerations of it definitely remain in my life. I have the belief that if you wan't to buy somebody a present, then you should just do it, because then there's more surprise for them when they receive something unexpected rather than receive something because you're socially obligated to buy a present at Christmas time. And I do this all the time! I'm constantly making mini thoughtful care packages for people I care about when they're sad, and I do it because it makes me happy to make somebody else smile, but also by doing this, I've made it very hard to buy presents now. Like, what do I get them?

Maybe I shouldn't be talking like this, because I work in retail... SPEND YOUR MONEY, FOLKS, KEEP ME IN A JOB!

Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas time, and I love giving and receiving presents. I love the atmosphere, and I love the chill in the air, but I don't like the stress associated with buying Christmas presents (and don't get me started on how it feels to work in the retail side of it, because that shit can get stressful at times.) It's just that ... Christmas has become so commercialised, and I'm worred the idea of gift giving has lost some value. Does that make sense? I don't know if that makes sense.

Basically, I don't know what I want for Christmas, but you don't have to get me anything at all. (But if you did decide to get me something it would seriously make me smile!) I just don't want people to think that they're obligated to get me anything just because it's "the season of giving".

This is a very rambly post, I'm really sorry!
Check out my last post, which was about how one of my lifelong dreams finally came true!

Until next time, be excellent to each other.